WONDERLAND...

A childhood friend sent me his invitation

for his wedding..it jus made me realise his

house is located near to d place where my

family docs hospital used to be... dis was not

any hospital...it was d place where d dream to

be a doc was reinforced...


It was located in one of d most btful

serene places..absolutely quiet away from d

city..there r lotta memories attached to that

place..d banyan trees whose barks i used to

hang on as a toddler..a huge well which i at d

age of 5 thought grew d most btfuly chopped

grass..mnths later when i threw a stone

inside i realised it was a sheen of green

algae( ya i thgt algae was btful thn which

funnily if i relate to dat particular well-i still

find it btful)...this ganpati temple -now i aint

religious..bt i remember ringing d sole bell

dat hung in front of it some particular no. of

times..i liked d noise of it...as i liked d cooing

of d cuckoo-it never sounded so btful to

ears..d tiles dat lead to d hospital where i

gladly played "chip langdi"...d gynaec wards i

peeped into to see small babies,somne

dozzing off..some yawning..some potting

around..d compounder uncle who bribed me

wid sweet cough tabs dat i liked back

then-for narrating a poem....d rotating stool

in d docs cabin..you might say whtz d big deal

about d rotating stool-back then-i found it to

be a joyous ride sitting on it n whirling

around..oh n i had a lil more than few

injection shots there...some really painful

shots-i wud ask d doc for my fav nurse who

was my fav cos she wud give those shots wid

less pain-yea thr was always a comparative

degree then..i was a very enthusiastic kid

when in d docs cabin..i jus wanted to know

which colour tabs he gave for which

ailment..(yea as 4-5 yr old i thought colours r

d criteria for allotment;)evrytime i visited dat

place i wud tell d doc-"im going to be a

doctor too!" n assuming d no. of times i got

friendly wid illness--i think that must be like

a hundreds of times..



today years later when all those

memories r just brought back-i cant help

feeling dat lil stir in my heart..funnily when

those memories were being formed i never

realised dey cud make me feel dis way about

them..what was so different then? i think

those moments where i truly lived "being

myself" fearlessly without any worries..n

widout getting lost in d chaos of a world r all

worth cherishing...years go by-but d magic

never fades..someday dis day today if im

able to live "being myself" will go down as a

beautiful memory in d collection..u never

know !

LIFE IS MATH!

All through school years most of us keep dreading one subject d most- d baap of all d subjects-MATH! d fear almost makes us hate d subject itself.. today when i look back-i dont have a particular reason to have started off wid dis fear- perhaps may be cos parents pressure of getting a 100/100(sucker MATH wud take out all d possibility of an excuse-since u can score d damn 100)or may be cos most of d times uve been listening as a kid- MATH is difficult...


There was a time when i entered class 11 n d teachers wud give dese group-D, d toughest of d lot as homework..nw i really struggled for 2 hrs to get it right..n i still wudnt:( then exhaution wud demand a nap- n when i wud wake up- d 1st try wud give me d answer..yea i really cudnt figure out hw dat worked almost always...i mean a nap is all i needed?? cmonnnn! but today i have an answer...d sleep did relax me- when i woke up my half drowsy half sleepy mind surely wasnt at d peak of its so called SENSE..so im guessing it must have forgotten dat MATH is a difficult subject ! LOGIC is all it takes to be there..n reach d result.SIMPLE plain logic...i wud be a few among those handful of pple in d class of 160 to get d sum right- i wasted lot of time but i jus so wanted to get it right-not justified-i failed to sit back n jus think..may be for a while..as to why d nap worked? now i dont mean to say im superintelligent at all- but im sure most like me -jus went out thr wid a mindset-dat MATH is nevah meant to be easy..n screwed d basic LOGIC zone of d brain up!(IM REALLY GOOD AT DIS!)

Sometimes i wonder may be dats d same rule we apply to LIFE... we go out there wid dese big ideas n much bigger fear of how life sucks-how difficult it is-Most of it-cos we have been hearing all of it 4m others..or we have seen them dealing wid it..SMile is probably an expression exclusively d property of kids-yea dats d happy lot u like to see- then as we keep growing- "obliged smile " comes into pic..n d other frown muscles,anger muscles get thr huge share of exercise..Im sure life is as easy as MATH...N im sure its a mass error of jus ATTITUDE-dat makes it appear like a huge mountain...All we need is dat damn nap-dat one moment of silence n peace- every problem will not give u a solution at its 1st attempt..n gravity of evry problem will differ too-(rememebr d group a,group b, groupc, group d funda)but all u can be assured of is dat each will definately come wid a solution..n even if sometimes u r not able to reach it evry step gives u A MARK in a long run!