Like all kids i was also very fascinated with the superman,batman (yea d guys made a bold fashion statement-by wearing whats inside on d outside!).Dis whole concept of some masked guy wid lot of super powers who wud help d needy widout revealing his true identity sure sounded amazing....When christmas wud arrive i wud actually listen to some wonderful stories from my catholic friends about how at midnight santa left a gift for them-i believed santa was a wonderful grandad who wud actually gift u whatever u wanted-all u had to do was write d wish on a piece of paper..
I was 5-6 when i actually tried dat thing out..i wrote a wish dat nevah came true d next morning..my catholic frnds recieved their gift when i dint..i wondered-"if santa was so gud like dey all say then perhaps i must have done somethng terrible to upset him...else i think he jus gifts christians".After a couple of years i obviously came to know dat santa doesnt exist at all- i was so shocked d day my friend told me-i kept thinking about it d entire day-i mean if u have been believing in something for so many years n u see so many people around u believe it too..n then suddenly someday ur world is shaken cos ur belief system is..As i grew up to be a teen,i had formed so many beliefs only cos d people i believe d most believed it- i believed in dis entity called GOD(an external power dat rules d world!)..o rite..n i believed in lot many things like friendship..love..trust..jus in d way we have been seeing it or known it for years..I sure had my curiosity ticking of all d whys n hows-but none had any answers to it..Gradually d beliefs grew stronger as d number of people believing in them did..n to all those questions i had behind my mind-i put them sound asleep!
Today im trying my every bit to wake up-d slumber sure seems pleasant-but i no more want to make allowances for myself..n i have woken up to lot of things-But d most important thing ive woken upto is dat belief system should be carefully chosen cos it not only affects U but a larger mass of people.So since belief system is so much vital i see no reason to put it at stake by laying its foundation on loose"i feel" value-i dont care how many agree or disagree to it, as much as i dont care who d authority is to question my convictions-I want nothing but truth to be its base-hence ive forlong stopped following-i dont see myself to be at d end of any set of traditions i can perhaps begin one..Hence i believe in GOD..but im not ready to believe dat he is different than me..n love,friendship or trust if not backed by a rational mind-soon wither away wid time..I think its high time we stop running away from our mind n instead start running towards it to embrace it-As a human dats perhaps d highest degree of morality i can display!
